I think I get enough of this. I need something todo in Saturday. It’s the loneliness that keep creeping in.
I came to this conclusion when I go online in a Warnet, reading manga from onemanga.com, in Saturday Night, when other people clubing, dating or do something. It’s not the most boring thing todo, but I knew that time, It’s gotta be more than this. Well, I suppose reading books and watching 3 DVD I bought last month don’t count, either going out to Movie alone in weekends. Oh yeah, Dark Knight rocks, baby!
To make thing short, Life sucks! But it’s not her fault. Maybe I’m to caught up to routine jobs, scheduled events, todo-list, and trying to catch that deadline that keep changing. Those and the fact some of my friend throwing their wedding invitation in my mailbox. So when loneliness creeping in, I felt empty and hollow.
I’m considering some changing life. Some of them involve language course, French to be exact, German is way too expensive. Parkour and martial arts also tempting. Maybe my life needs a little adrenaline.
Relationship? Get real. I’m an idealist person. I don’t look for girl when I’m lonely, or to be exact especially not when I’m lonely. Been there, done that. The result were heartbreak, obsessive-compulsive attitude, phone call, breaking stuff, turning into Hulk, err.. the last two never happen, and in the end just another loneliness. Not so good.
Well, loneliness sucks. But good thing about it, it’s you get to know yourself when you’re lonely. You can’t hide in the crowd, hide in back of your friend or pretend that you’re busy and don’t have time for this. You have to face yourself head-on. I don’t like what I see, but I have to spent my entire life with that person on the mirror.
So, I have to change. Let me rephrase that, I MUST CHANGE!
And maybe some vacation.
Let me ask you something, do you feel lonely today? And how you handle those emptiness?
PS : And yes, my english sucks, so be patient with me. And the proof my lonely life, well, I wrote a flash fiction this weekend. Maybe I’ll post it in few hours, or maybe tommorow. I have few things in my hand right now.